Thursday, March 19, 2009

Superhero or Superneurotic

Consumed? Involved? Obsessed?

Any one of these words comes to mind when I think about my life these days. This is almost the end of another week and yet I feel like I am running at breakneck speed without a destination mainly because I feel I am chasing after something I don't really believe I will ever catch.

Not only is it simply another week in my ever.so.chaotic.world, but it is DQ's spring break. One that I am secretly harboring massive guilt because I go to work and she goes to camp and we come home and get ready to do it again tomorrow.

Oh I know, she's at camp and she loves it, I have to work to pay for camp and honestly...I NEVER did that sort of thing growing up. My spring breaks were spent roaming the neighborhood on my bike with the other neighbor kids looking for ways to entertain ourselves (can you say bike races or waterballoon fights?!) I want to give her more than what I had, but I also know that I already am giving her more than I had at her age and yet...I feel like I am barely keeping up.

Simply put, I'm maintaining. Life as I know it is fast paced and cram packed. Always something to do, always something to see, always someone needing to find a lost shoe or wanting to have a conversation about...well, about nothing but the thoughts in their mind. Me - I want to be supermom, superwife, superhuman and get it all done with a smile on my face and my makeup in tact...instead my hair looks like I stuck my finger in a light socket and I'm breathing so hard I think I might pass out! (quick pass the paper bag)

Not that long ago (yes, I wish I could forget) I said I wanted a change and something was going to give. Well, I got my change - full speed ahead and now I cross my finger and hope I remembered to wear my depends, because when this thing stops...I think I may sh*t myself.

Do you ever feel like you can't keep up?

11 comments:

DysFUNctional Mom said...

I feel like this often...that's why I have to force myself to take a break and let things go a little bit.

tootie said...

I hope things slow down for you a bit! And just remember to breathe :)

auntie said...

i feel like this ALL THE TIME. and i don't have children. or a husband. or even pets! it goes something like this: the many things i WANT to do plus the many things i NEED to do multiplied by all the crazy hardcore expectations we put on ourselves these days = a recipe for MAJOR MELTDOWN!

i know it's hard, and probably against your nature, but sometimes if we can let go of the expectations - the extra-high standards and feelings of needing to be PERFECT all the damn time - it makes things at least a little bit easier. here's hoping you figure it out sooner rather than later!

thanks for stopping by my blog - it always makes me feel good to hear that you've been thinking about me :)

Zandria said...

It's funny...while we don't like being bored, it's also NOT FUN to be so busy that you're constantly stressed and don't have enough down-time. :(

Cheffie-Mom said...

Hi, I found you on Kellan's blog. My son is in high school and my daughter is grown, but I remember those days -- everyday being an agenda. It's tough. I hope you are able to get some rest. I'd love for you to stop by my blog. (:

J and J Acres said...

I don't see how you moms do it. Just having pets and Mr. C around is enough to make me crazy at times!!

Heather said...

Here lately, every day of my life. I've been swamped and just can't catch up!! It drives me INSANE.

I did buy some Special K tonight, tho.. I'm going to TRY it. I dunno if I'll be able to beat it either. I'll let you know ;)

Jenn said...

All the time, sister! It's the nature of uor society these days. Stupid society.

Tiaras and Tantrums said...

I NEVER KEEP UP!!!!!! I just went to the grocery store this morning and then came home and realized how much stuff I forget to get!!!!!!!!

A Buns Life said...

Every second of every minute of hour of every day?

Rebecca Anne said...

Oh you are going through one of those times that I try to avoid like a bad virus, getting so much on my plate I can't catch up.
It does sound like camp is going well, if it wasn't you'd know all about it. My girls just started Spring Break, so we'll see how our next week goes. Is it bad to say how much I appreciate school time?
I hope you get a break soon and have a bit of time to take a big old deep breath. Hang in there~